Oh god, I am so tired. Its only week two of this term and my body feels like its being ran over by a bus everyday. This is hard, in my head sometimes I wonder if its all worth it and why I’m putting my self through it. I’ve never been this committed to anything before and getting up at 7 everyday is too difficult, especially the thought of exercising none stop all day. I normally don’t get home till half 6/7 every night. Then I have to cook/sort things out for the next day of dancing! exhausting.
But then last week it all changed, we did a Chicago workshop and the guy running it had to pick people at the end who would get a call back if it was an audition and he said I would. Even though I don’t want to go into musical theatre its ace when you know you could if you wanted to/if I worked hard enough. All I want to do is perform and get payed to do something that makes me feel so powerful, thats how I feel onstage, like I’m in control of the situation and can get an audience to feel something they didn’t think they could.
Enough dreaming, I want to start making things happen.
